The young French novelist examines the shape and direction of the writer's perceptions with an attempt to make statements about life and God through the process of the novelist's path of living. A young woman, happily engaged in the literary art since childhood, involved now incongruously with husband, four children and a domestic routine, finds that she is repudiating the careful detachment of the existentialist. She indicates a need ""to take sides"" as she had understood in observing old women fighting over scraps of food in Tunis. She rejects the ""drowning in life"", life which is death's friend. She also rejects the steely weight of the conveyor belt way of life and discovers the concept of grace -- ""that ability and desire to make out one's own place in this colorless life."" As Cezanne worked carefully through a multitude of days, the individual may expect one day to be quite like another. However achieving acceptance of life brings with it knowledge of the ability to change. Outward from Zen, somewhat special.