by Andrijka Keller ‧ RELEASE DATE: June 28, 2018
Funny, frank, and visceral; an unconventional consideration of bulimia.
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Diagnosed with bulimia at 15, Keller recalls her journey through rehab in this triumphant debut memoir.
During her sophomore year in 2007, Keller, who grew up in Philadelphia, was invited into the school nurse’s office along with her father to be told that she must attend the Redford Center for Eating Disorders. Her father burst into tears, declaring that he had failed as a parent, and Keller felt that she had “failed as a child.” Keller briefly describes her struggles with her weight in elementary school; she was 200 pounds and constantly bullied. By fifth grade, she learned “that being fat is a bad thing” and started crash dieting. By 15, she was hospitalized on account of her declining health—a direct result of her eating disorder. Soon after, she was ordered by the state to receive “mandatory inpatient treatment.” Keller’s illness is personified as “ED,” whom she envisages as “an attractive GQ business man [sic], complete with a strong jaw and expensive suit.” ED looks on disparagingly when she eats and congratulates her when she makes herself vomit. Keller’s memoir charts her stay and progress at rehab, where she was treated for bulimia nervosa, major depressive disorder, and social anxiety disorder. It also details her camaraderie with other inpatients as they devise ways to defy the strict rehabilitation regime, like wedging open the automatically locking toilet door with a pencil so that it could be used without supervision and secretly gifting one another laxatives. In her introduction, Keller writes: “I have read approximately 1.5 fuck-tons of memoirs that discuss mental illness and/or an eating disorder. They are all so gloomy. My story isn’t sad.” This isn’t strictly true. Keller’s description of a “gray, skeletal girl,” similar to a “victim from those Holocaust movies,” whom she wheeled through the facility is deeply sad and unnerving: “I was fixated on her wrist and collar bones. They were so tiny, so frail, like those of an elderly person. They were perfect.” However, her approach is by no means gloomy; she adopts an assertive, confrontational tone from the get-go: “It’s a funny word, isn’t it? Re-hab. It’s a dirty word. One that cannot be spoken above a whisper.” Referring to a fellow inpatient as “the corpse” and a pair of anorexic twin sisters as the “Addams Twins” may be interpreted by some readers as flippant. Others will understand this dark humor as the fortifying quality that allows the author to complete the program successfully. The memoir takes an unforeseen twist in the final chapters, in which Keller describes her post-rehab life working as a fashion model in New York. She say, “it was the skinniest I had ever been,” which raises momentary concerns as to whether this will be a success story; yet her exposure and ultimate dismissal of casting directors and bookers within the industry who castigate models for being overweight proves both enlightening and empowering.
Funny, frank, and visceral; an unconventional consideration of bulimia.Pub Date: June 28, 2018
ISBN: 978-1-983294-94-5
Page Count: 260
Publisher: Self
Review Posted Online: Oct. 31, 2019
Review Program: Kirkus Indie
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by E.T.A. Hoffmann ‧ RELEASE DATE: Oct. 28, 1996
This is not the Nutcracker sweet, as passed on by Tchaikovsky and Marius Petipa. No, this is the original Hoffmann tale of 1816, in which the froth of Christmas revelry occasionally parts to let the dark underside of childhood fantasies and fears peek through. The boundaries between dream and reality fade, just as Godfather Drosselmeier, the Nutcracker's creator, is seen as alternately sinister and jolly. And Italian artist Roberto Innocenti gives an errily realistic air to Marie's dreams, in richly detailed illustrations touched by a mysterious light. A beautiful version of this classic tale, which will captivate adults and children alike. (Nutcracker; $35.00; Oct. 28, 1996; 136 pp.; 0-15-100227-4)
Pub Date: Oct. 28, 1996
ISBN: 0-15-100227-4
Page Count: 136
Publisher: Harcourt
Review Posted Online: May 19, 2010
Kirkus Reviews Issue: Aug. 15, 1996
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by Ludwig Bemelmans ‧ RELEASE DATE: Feb. 23, 1955
An extravaganza in Bemelmans' inimitable vein, but written almost dead pan, with sly, amusing, sometimes biting undertones, breaking through. For Bemelmans was "the man who came to cocktails". And his hostess was Lady Mendl (Elsie de Wolfe), arbiter of American decorating taste over a generation. Lady Mendl was an incredible person,- self-made in proper American tradition on the one hand, for she had been haunted by the poverty of her childhood, and the years of struggle up from its ugliness,- until she became synonymous with the exotic, exquisite, worshipper at beauty's whrine. Bemelmans draws a portrait in extremes, through apt descriptions, through hilarious anecdote, through surprisingly sympathetic and understanding bits of appreciation. The scene shifts from Hollywood to the home she loved the best in Versailles. One meets in passing a vast roster of famous figures of the international and artistic set. And always one feels Bemelmans, slightly offstage, observing, recording, commenting, illustrated.
Pub Date: Feb. 23, 1955
ISBN: 0670717797
Page Count: -
Publisher: Viking
Review Posted Online: Oct. 25, 2011
Kirkus Reviews Issue: Feb. 1, 1955
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