The legendary Celtic guard goes one-on-one with his conscience here as he reevaluates the effects of his ""intense desire to win."" Having retired in 1963 after thirteen years with Boston, Cousy spent the next decade coaching--first Boston College for six years, then four more in the NBA with the Cincinnati Royals-Kansas City Kings. Although he guided BC through several highly successful seasons, he had to contend with pressure-induced intestinal attacks as well as the recruiting problems which befall a non-basketball power. Coaching in the pros proved to be even more trying, saddled as he was with a mediocre team. Cousy quit once he realized that his killer instinct could ""kill the moral sense, the happiness of a family, even the man himself."" Looking back, he views the game as a form of natural high--one which made him ""an addict, strung out on the need to compete and the need to win in whatever I did."" A soul-bating self-portrait by the man with the golden set shot.