This account of a (short) circus career retains the youth of the author's 17 years when a chance meeting in Sarasota with John Ringling North, who wanted her for Alice in Wonderland in the ""spec"", actually led to her joining on. She did not get to be Alice, she was jeered out of being a ""walker"", got to be a ""sitter"", and as one of the 50 starlets, found herself in ballet, on horses and elephants, and performing whether she liked it or not. The hard work of rehearsals (which continued through the whole tour), the opening in New York City and the cross country shows, the things she learned about animals and their handlers, about other acts, about living on the road -- these are part of her romance with Paraito Cristani (of the bareback horseriding family), of experiences with her roommates (the ""laundry gang"") and her growing into the circus pattern. But the season over -- she had learned that this was not her world and, in spite of her love for it, she would always be an outsider looking in. A girlish and gay backward look, this gives a very fresh look at circus life.