A guide for aspiring senior athletes and an inspirational shoutout to victims of abuse.




A runner, denied her chance to compete as a teenager, returns to the challenge almost 50 years later—and finds her path to self-understanding in the process.

In 1959, Kern (100 Whispered Words, 2015, etc.), an Austrian teenager, was offered the chance to compete as a sprinter for a place on the Olympic team. She was ecstatic. Then her father said “no!” and slapped her to the floor. It was a major disappointment but didn’t really come as a surprise. He had been beating and verbally abusing her for years. After his death two years later, the author went on to snag some acting and modeling jobs in Europe. Fast-forward to 2004. Kern was living in Los Angeles and from a casual acquaintance she learned about the “Senior Olympics.” A new spark had been lit. In 2007, almost five decades after having been denied her chance to compete, the author acquired a coach and returned to training. This entailed an extraordinarily demanding schedule, especially for a woman working as a real estate agent, the manager of her apartment building, and a part-time interior design consultant while writing several books. It also involved a substantial level of pain, as one body part or another rebelled against the intense exercises. In April 2008, at the coach’s suggestion, Kern began a journal to keep track of her workouts, diet, and thoughts. This memoir, covering her experiences from 2008 to 2013, is culled from that journal. As she deftly reveals details of her past, readers gradually learn that the physical pain mirrored the psychological trauma she had kept tucked away for decades, what she calls “the Monster within”—the fear that she was not good enough, not worthy: “Whatever goes through my head is only intensified because I am still wrestling with my father.” So much of the very ably written text is devoted to the minuscule details of her training program that readers not involved in athletics will likely become restless. But her story of overcoming layers of damage caused by her father’s violent attacks is compelling.

A guide for aspiring senior athletes and an inspirational shoutout to victims of abuse.  

Pub Date: Jan. 12, 2017

ISBN: 978-1-4575-5298-4

Page Count: 176

Publisher: Dog Ear Publishing

Review Posted Online: Sept. 28, 2018

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Stricter than, say, Bergen Evans or W3 ("disinterested" means impartial — period), Strunk is in the last analysis...



Privately published by Strunk of Cornell in 1918 and revised by his student E. B. White in 1959, that "little book" is back again with more White updatings.

Stricter than, say, Bergen Evans or W3 ("disinterested" means impartial — period), Strunk is in the last analysis (whoops — "A bankrupt expression") a unique guide (which means "without like or equal").

Pub Date: May 15, 1972

ISBN: 0205632645

Page Count: 105

Publisher: Macmillan

Review Posted Online: Oct. 28, 2011

Kirkus Reviews Issue: May 1, 1972

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Noted jazz and pop record producer Thiele offers a chatty autobiography. Aided by record-business colleague Golden, Thiele traces his career from his start as a ``pubescent, novice jazz record producer'' in the 1940s through the '50s, when he headed Coral, Dot, and Roulette Records, and the '60s, when he worked for ABC and ran the famous Impulse! jazz label. At Coral, Thiele championed the work of ``hillbilly'' singer Buddy Holly, although the only sessions he produced with Holly were marred by saccharine strings. The producer specialized in more mainstream popsters like the irrepressibly perky Teresa Brewer (who later became his fourth wife) and the bubble-machine muzak-meister Lawrence Welk. At Dot, Thiele was instrumental in recording Jack Kerouac's famous beat- generation ramblings to jazz accompaniment (recordings that Dot's president found ``pornographic''), while also overseeing a steady stream of pop hits. He then moved to the Mafia-controlled Roulette label, where he observed the ``silk-suited, pinky-ringed'' entourage who frequented the label's offices. Incredibly, however, Thiele remembers the famously hard-nosed Morris Levy, who ran the label and was eventually convicted of extortion, as ``one of the kindest, most warm-hearted, and classiest music men I have ever known.'' At ABC/Impulse!, Thiele oversaw the classic recordings of John Coltrane, although he is the first to admit that Coltrane essentially produced his own sessions. Like many producers of the day, Thiele participated in the ownership of publishing rights to some of the songs he recorded; he makes no apology for this practice, which he calls ``entirely appropriate and without any ethical conflicts.'' A pleasant, if not exactly riveting, memoir that will be of most interest to those with a thirst for cocktail-hour stories of the record biz. (25 halftones, not seen)

Pub Date: May 1, 1995

ISBN: 0-19-508629-4

Page Count: 224

Publisher: Oxford Univ.

Review Posted Online: May 20, 2010

Kirkus Reviews Issue: March 1, 1995

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