BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, I’LL BE DEAD

Daelyn will commit suicide in 23 days. Until then, she will plan the circumstances of her death and share her reasons for wanting to kill herself on an Internet discussion board. Bullying, both physical and emotional, has made Daelyn’s life hell. After years of abuse at her peers’ hands, she refuses to form emotional connections. At home, her clueless parents guard her movements and allow her little privacy. Despite Daelyn’s inability to speak due to a failed suicide attempt, a quirky boy she meets outside school wants to befriend her. His friendship, however, cannot change Daelyn’s isolation, despair or traumatic past. The ending is purposely unclear as to whether Daelyn commits suicide. Through her board postings, readers will see that Daelyn has good reason to be depressed, but some might question whether she is too willing to play the victim. Parts of her journey feel rushed, particularly the times when she reflects on her reasons for killing herself. Includes a discussion guide and resources on suicide and bullying. (Fiction. YA)