A high school senior hides his trans identity by day and by night lives in a fantasy circus dream world, where he can be fully himself.
Asher Sullivan is a high schooler in conservative, small-town New Hampshire who hides his gender identity from his single mom, his Christian grandparents, and almost everyone else. His grandparents, who use his deadname and force him to wear his Catholic school uniform skirt, can’t wait for him to follow in his late father’s footsteps by taking over the family law business—which is currently fighting against a transgender girl’s right to use the girls’ bathroom and locker room at a local public school. At night, Asher dreams of the Midnight Circus, where he’s free to be himself and can fly on the trapeze alongside a beguiling—yet frustratingly aloof—boy named Apollo. When Apollo shows up at Asher’s school, his lives intersect, and Asher must confront painful feelings. The internal logic of the fantasy world is uneven and works best if it’s not scrutinized too closely. The circus provides a sparkling contrast to the straightforward trans self-affirmation story, however, and will appeal to readers who enjoy the dramatic arts. All main characters are white; secondary characters include a broadly diverse range of identities. (This review was updated to correct a character's name.)
A trans story of belonging and first love with uneven worldbuilding.
(Fiction. 13-18)