MY HEART UNDERWATER

Corazon “Cory” Tagubio is a Southern Californian FilAm caught between her duty toward her hardworking immigrant parents and her sexual awakening.

When her mother catches 17-year-old Cory kissing Ms. Holden, her 25-year-old White Catholic school history teacher, she sends Cory to the Philippines to live with Kuya Jun, an older half brother whom she has only met through Skype. Cory arrives in the Philippines heartbroken twice over: Her beloved father is in a coma, and, separated from Ms. Holden, Cory feels untethered and deeply alone. In her YA debut, Fantauzzo’s gorgeous writing presents an emotionally wrought American-born teenager on a journey to define her present as well as understand her family’s past. The unethical relationship with Ms. Holden is effectively used as a device for Cory’s journey of self-inquiry and growing understanding of real love, bolstered by her cousin’s and friends’ more developed ethical and political consciousnesses. One of a cast of splendidly drawn characters, Cory faces hidden truths about familial separation and lasting bonds that provide a layered backdrop for her own catharsis. In tight sentences, Fantauzzo packs a punch, describing Cory’s fraught emotional tightrope as she negotiates Catholic dogma of right and wrong, repression, and rage in ways that will surely resonate with anyone who simply cannot live any longer without questioning norms. Tagalog and Taglish are interlaced throughout, adding an atmospheric texture that refreshingly lends rarely depicted insights into authentic Filipino humor, conflict, and expressions of love.

A (home)coming out story that rides a deep undercurrent of love.