WATCHING PORN

An accidental porn journalist reflects on her role mining the sex and politics of the adult film industry.

In her post-collegiate years, G. found herself writing about porn by necessity: she desperately needed a job to stabilize her life in Manhattan. The self-described “country girl with a flair for the dramatic” was raised conservatively on a farm where educative books about sex were hidden away. A traumatic sexual assault compounded the author’s repression and tainted her view of bodily pleasure. When confronted with work on an adult magazine, G. briskly became accustomed to life as a paid porn journalist. What had formerly been her “greatest source of shame and satisfaction” had now become her livelihood. Co-founding Whack! magazine and a column as a “pervy outlier” at McSweeney’s in 2009 solidified her resolve to pursue writing as a career. Though definitely not for the sex-shy, the narrative has a breezy, conversational flow even when the author graphically discusses shock-value gonzo porn or the history of dildos. G. remains consistently affable, never flinty, despite moments of work-related exasperation such as her marked revulsion toward an overly forward Ron Jeremy at an industry expo. In addition to the more erotic personal experiences she shares while a media fixture on the adult industry circuit, G. also amassed a wealth of knowledge about how individualistically it functions, the misconceptions of those involved, and issues of racism, homophobia, and condom use. She also provides thought-provoking chapters on feminist porn and obscenity laws. As a writer with definitive feminist leanings, working in porn left G. internally conflicted as she asked herself, “could I really be a feminist and not only watch this type of sexual behavior—but profit on it?” Her answer, and the ways she reconciles this and other adverse aspects of her life, plays out through the remainder of a cleverly seductive, straightforward, unapologetically carnal chronicle of an unconventional working life.

An intelligent, provocative, and indulgent insider’s view of the contemporary porn industry.