Von der Grun, a German teenager during World War II, wrote this combination autobiography-documentary history of the Nazi years to set the record straight for today's young Germans whose elders have tended to play down the horrors and the extent of public awareness. For this reason he often gets involved in discrediting excuses that American young people have never heard in the first place. Americans will also find that the summary frequently sets down details without a clear outline of salient events or--despite the title, a quote from the author's mother's advice--any serious investigation of the alternatives open to the common people. The idea of combining personal and public record is interesting but the two strands are not well integrated here. In fact, even without the personal recollections, the documentary material is put together in a jerky, scrapbook-like manner. The documents can't fail to appall, and Von der Grun clearly makes his point. But there are more eloquent and skillfully assembled records available.