MY GOVERNMENT MEANS TO KILL ME

A gay Black man's personal transformation and political awakening in mid-1980s New York City.

In his engrossing debut, Newson, television writer and producer of Narcos and Bel-Air, introduces readers to Earl “Trey” Singleton III, a young Black man born into an affluent family of political speechwriters in Indianapolis. Stifled by his parents’ lofty expectations and the narrow-mindedness of his community, Trey flees to New York City at 17 with $2,327 that doesn’t last long. The year is 1985, and New York is rife with tension: Jobs are few, racism and homophobia rampant, and corruption unbridled. Struggling to find work and housing, Trey meets Gregory, who makes ends meet by catering to the needs of a host of older White (usually closeted) men (or daddies, as Trey calls them). Together, Trey and Gregory rent a derelict studio apartment and wander through Mt. Morris in Harlem, one of the few remaining gay bathhouses, where Trey finally finds some form of queer community. “Mt. Morris wasn’t only about sex,” says Trey, as he develops a close friendship with activist and social justice advocate Bayard Rustin, who attempts to politicize the young man. Rustin’s mentorship becomes critical to Trey as he organizes a strike against his negligent landlord, Fred Trump, and becomes increasingly involved in AIDS activism, volunteering at an AIDS home hospice and becoming an active member of ACT UP. A fictional memoir, the novel is divided into chapters titled after a lesson Trey learns within (“Lesson #6: Romantic Notions Are Delusions"). The chapters often conclude with an explanation of their thematic content, which, while an interesting device, is frequently too on-the-nose. Nevertheless, footnotes provide context and compelling detail for readers who are not familiar with queer history.

Delightful and fast-paced, a fascinating narrative of queer activism during the AIDS epidemic.