Earning Girl Scout badges, by any means necessary, becomes a girl’s way of coping with her seriously dysfunctional family in this comedic memoir.

Beaman (Communications and Leadership/California Polytechnic University; You’re Only Young Twice, 2006) grew up desperate to win approval from her narcissistic father. Good grades, athletics, talent competitions—she strove for success in everything, and often succeeded. But Beaman’s real métier was earning Girl Scout merit badges and, by the time she was done, she needed two sashes to hold them all. This memoir structures striking moments in the author’s childhood and coming to terms with her dysfunctional family through badges won and lessons learned, reflecting throughout on the real nature of merit. The author writes with vivid energy and humor, and she knows how to turn a phrase; she describes her hospitalized father as “slowly deflating, like a basketball left too long in the garage.” She is fair to her parents, probably even diminishing their selfishness. A less resilient girl would have a different story to write. Beaman, though, is amazingly resilient, hard-working and determined, putting the kind of effort into launching a front-yard charity carnival that would do an IBM project manager proud. Big, bright humor is both shield and weapon in this memoir, a way to avoid self-pity while skewering her parents, other adults and herself. Sometimes it works, but sometimes the humor feels artificial, more interested in getting off a zinger than exploring real feelings. When her father unkindly criticizes her efforts to win a singing audition, Beaman comments “As usual, he really knows how to put a song in my heart!” Each chapter ends with a heavy-handed prepackaged lesson, as with “Making Music”: “The instrumental lesson I really learn, however, is that my life is my own composition”; Beaman often seems the same eager-beaver overachiever she was as a child, desperate to prove what she’s learned.  And, though she suggests at the end that she’s moved beyond earning badges, Beaman says little about her adult self besides her achievements. An amusing memoir that would be stronger if it were more grounded in an adult perspective.


Pub Date: Feb. 18, 2012

ISBN: 978-1936214471

Page Count: 242

Publisher: Wyatt-MacKenzie Publishing

Review Posted Online: March 20, 2012

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A strict report, worthy of sympathy.


A violent surfacing of adolescence (which has little in common with Tarkington's earlier, broadly comic, Seventeen) has a compulsive impact.

"Nobody big except me" is the dream world of Holden Caulfield and his first person story is down to the basic, drab English of the pre-collegiate. For Holden is now being bounced from fancy prep, and, after a vicious evening with hall- and roommates, heads for New York to try to keep his latest failure from his parents. He tries to have a wild evening (all he does is pay the check), is terrorized by the hotel elevator man and his on-call whore, has a date with a girl he likes—and hates, sees his 10 year old sister, Phoebe. He also visits a sympathetic English teacher after trying on a drunken session, and when he keeps his date with Phoebe, who turns up with her suitcase to join him on his flight, he heads home to a hospital siege. This is tender and true, and impossible, in its picture of the old hells of young boys, the lonesomeness and tentative attempts to be mature and secure, the awful block between youth and being grown-up, the fright and sickness that humans and their behavior cause the challenging, the dramatization of the big bang. It is a sorry little worm's view of the off-beat of adult pressure, of contemporary strictures and conformity, of sentiment….

A strict report, worthy of sympathy.

Pub Date: June 15, 1951

ISBN: 0316769177

Page Count: -

Publisher: Little, Brown

Review Posted Online: Nov. 2, 2011

Kirkus Reviews Issue: June 15, 1951

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Unrelenting gloom relieved only occasionally by wrenching trauma; somehow, though, Hannah’s storytelling chops keep the...


Hannah’s sequel to Firefly Lane (2008) demonstrates that those who ignore family history are often condemned to repeat it.

When we last left Kate and Tully, the best friends portrayed in Firefly Lane, the friendship was on rocky ground. Now Kate has died of cancer, and Tully, whose once-stellar TV talk show career is in free fall, is wracked with guilt over her failure to be there for Kate until her very last days. Kate’s death has cemented the distrust between her husband, Johnny, and daughter Marah, who expresses her grief by cutting herself and dropping out of college to hang out with goth poet Paxton. Told mostly in flashbacks by Tully, Johnny, Marah and Tully’s long-estranged mother, Dorothy, aka Cloud, the story piles up disasters like the derailment of a high-speed train. Increasingly addicted to prescription sedatives and alcohol, Tully crashes her car and now hovers near death, attended by Kate’s spirit, as the other characters gather to see what their shortsightedness has wrought. We learn that Tully had tried to parent Marah after her father no longer could. Her hard-drinking decline was triggered by Johnny’s anger at her for keeping Marah and Paxton’s liaison secret. Johnny realizes that he only exacerbated Marah’s depression by uprooting the family from their Seattle home. Unexpectedly, Cloud, who rebuffed Tully’s every attempt to reconcile, also appears at her daughter’s bedside. Sixty-nine years old and finally sober, Cloud details for the first time the abusive childhood, complete with commitments to mental hospitals and electroshock treatments, that led to her life as a junkie lowlife and punching bag for trailer-trash men. Although powerful, Cloud’s largely peripheral story deflects focus away from the main conflict, as if Hannah was loath to tackle the intractable thicket in which she mired her main characters.

Unrelenting gloom relieved only occasionally by wrenching trauma; somehow, though, Hannah’s storytelling chops keep the pages turning even as readers begin to resent being drawn into this masochistic morass.

Pub Date: April 23, 2013

ISBN: 978-0-312-57721-6

Page Count: 416

Publisher: St. Martin's

Review Posted Online: Feb. 18, 2013

Kirkus Reviews Issue: March 1, 2013

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