LILAC IN WINTER

A contemporary YA novel about loss, love, and forgiveness.

Lilac Sophia Carpenter is 16 years, 11 months, and three weeks old, and she probably won’t live to see 17. An incurable, unnamed terminal illness ravages her body, and as she gets weaker, she daydreams: She imagines her life at different ages, sometimes reliving days in the past, but more often daydreaming about the future—about growing up and getting old and about experiences and jobs that she’ll never have. What most of these visions have in common is a special place reserved for her best friend, the boy next door, Nathan Emery, even though Lilac has barely spoken to him in years. Nathan knows that she’s dying, but he’s avoided talking to her for such a long time—ever since one fateful day when they were both 10 years old.Will he mend his relationship with Lilac before it’s too late? This sorrowful exploration of a dying young girl’s life seems designed to pull at readers’ heartstrings as it follows Lilac’s imaginings. As she comes to terms with what’s happening to her, she rails about the unfairness of it all, and a few chapters effectively unveil her real memories. The book also thoughtfully addresses themes of forgiveness and compassion—how her illness affects others and how their reactions affect her, in turn. A few scattered chapters from Nathan’s perspective feel at odds with the story, however, as they remove the focus from the main character in a way that feels contrived. The reason for Lilac and Nathan’s relationship falling apart feels anticlimactic, especially considering how the narrative keeps the secret from the reader until the end—but it’s tragic, nonetheless.

A slightly uneven but unflinchingly sad examination of untimely death.