A suburban girl chronicles the joys and dangers of the drug Ecstasy in her journal.
The unnamed narrator is a band geek who wishes her mother was as excited about her achievements as she is about sister Ashley's popularity. One night when hanging out with some friends, she tries Ecstasy, and it changes her life. The feeling of connection with everyone, the lack of inhibitions, finding beauty in everything—it makes her feel like less of a freak. Her experiences using Ecstasy, or Molly, give her the confidence to break out of her good-girl persona, even leading her to date Carson, one of the hottest guys at school. But when the narrator and Ashley get busted for using Molly at a school-sponsored event, it makes the narrator more determined to not give up the bliss she finds when using. She starts sneaking out, lying to her parents, and taking sexual risks, all for the high. But when her parents attempt to get her clean, the narrator isn't ready—not until tragedy strikes. Like an after-school special in book form, this trite problem novel is a by-the-numbers exploration of drug use. The shallow characters don't inspire much interest, and the plot mechanically moves from point A to point B without any surprises.
Readers eager for a didactic, anti-drug novel would do better to pick up the classic Go Ask Alice instead of this effort. (Fiction. 14-18)