A philosophically inquisitive discussion of what it means to be a Christian.




In a series of meditative essays, a former preacher with brain cancer ponders death, love, and God. 

Debut author Pankratz spent about a quarter-century as a missionary and pastor in the Evangelical tradition, but he eventually left it, disenchanted with what he saw as its hypocrisy, doctrinal dogmatism, and lack of inclusiveness. Moreover, he says, he was disillusioned by what he felt was a kind of scriptural idolatry—a blind devotion to the Bible that, in his view, placed it above spirituality and even God. The author experimented with a more liberal church, but although he was impressed by its message of tolerance, he was disappointed by the banality of its message. Pankratz’s post-ministry days have been professionally diverse: He’s sold cars, worked at a cafe and a liquor store, and tended bar. Here, he gathers his reflections into a series of self-sufficient essays that are more impressionistic than chronological; thus, they can be fully understood and enjoyed in any order. The author discusses a broad spectrum of personal and intellectual issues, including his ongoing battle with a cancerous brain tumor and his life as a husband and father. There are also lots of quotidian exploits and quirkily comic anecdotes about his friends—one of them apparently trained with a bona fide ninja. Still, the thematic fulcrum of his ruminations is his spiritual life—in particular, what it means to be a Christian outside the confines of institutional support and without the consolations of certainty. Pankratz writes with clarity and charm, and the personal intensity with which he interrogates serious issues is tempered by a breezy, informal style. His message is an uplifting one: “It…takes courage to face our feelings of loss, doubt, and emptiness. But once we begin sharing them, they often dissipate….We get served a pint of hope.…God is the ultimate bartender. And he never cuts us off.” The author’s background as a pastor does sometimes creep into his prose, as he has a tendency to sermonize. Overall, though, this is a thoughtful and engaging assemblage of reflections.

A philosophically inquisitive discussion of what it means to be a Christian.

Pub Date: Feb. 19, 2018

ISBN: 978-1-5255-1731-0

Page Count: 270

Publisher: FriesenPress

Review Posted Online: May 22, 2018

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Possibly inspired by the letters Cleary has received as a children's author, this begins with second-grader Leigh Botts' misspelled fan letter to Mr. Henshaw, whose fictitious book itself derives from the old take-off title Forty Ways W. Amuse a Dog. Soon Leigh is in sixth grade and bombarding his still-favorite author with a list of questions to be answered and returned by "next Friday," the day his author report is due. Leigh is disgruntled when Mr. Henshaw's answer comes late, and accompanied by a set of questions for Leigh to answer. He threatens not to, but as "Mom keeps nagging me about your dumb old questions" he finally gets the job done—and through his answers Mr. Henshaw and readers learn that Leigh considers himself "the mediumest boy in school," that his parents have split up, and that he dreams of his truck-driver dad driving him to school "hauling a forty-foot reefer, which would make his outfit add up to eighteen wheels altogether. . . . I guess I wouldn't seem so medium then." Soon Mr. Henshaw recommends keeping a diary (at least partly to get Leigh off his own back) and so the real letters to Mr. Henshaw taper off, with "pretend," unmailed letters (the diary) taking over. . . until Leigh can write "I don't have to pretend to write to Mr. Henshaw anymore. I have learned to say what I think on a piece of paper." Meanwhile Mr. Henshaw offers writing tips, and Leigh, struggling with a story for a school contest, concludes "I think you're right. Maybe I am not ready to write a story." Instead he writes a "true story" about a truck haul with his father in Leigh's real past, and this wins praise from "a real live author" Leigh meets through the school program. Mr. Henshaw has also advised that "a character in a story should solve a problem or change in some way," a standard juvenile-fiction dictum which Cleary herself applies modestly by having Leigh solve his disappearing lunch problem with a burglar-alarmed lunch box—and, more seriously, come to recognize and accept that his father can't be counted on. All of this, in Leigh's simple words, is capably and unobtrusively structured as well as valid and realistic. From the writing tips to the divorced-kid blues, however, it tends to substitute prevailing wisdom for the little jolts of recognition that made the Ramona books so rewarding.

Pub Date: Aug. 22, 1983

ISBN: 143511096X

Page Count: 133

Publisher: Morrow/HarperCollins

Review Posted Online: Oct. 16, 2011

Kirkus Reviews Issue: Aug. 1, 1983

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Noted jazz and pop record producer Thiele offers a chatty autobiography. Aided by record-business colleague Golden, Thiele traces his career from his start as a ``pubescent, novice jazz record producer'' in the 1940s through the '50s, when he headed Coral, Dot, and Roulette Records, and the '60s, when he worked for ABC and ran the famous Impulse! jazz label. At Coral, Thiele championed the work of ``hillbilly'' singer Buddy Holly, although the only sessions he produced with Holly were marred by saccharine strings. The producer specialized in more mainstream popsters like the irrepressibly perky Teresa Brewer (who later became his fourth wife) and the bubble-machine muzak-meister Lawrence Welk. At Dot, Thiele was instrumental in recording Jack Kerouac's famous beat- generation ramblings to jazz accompaniment (recordings that Dot's president found ``pornographic''), while also overseeing a steady stream of pop hits. He then moved to the Mafia-controlled Roulette label, where he observed the ``silk-suited, pinky-ringed'' entourage who frequented the label's offices. Incredibly, however, Thiele remembers the famously hard-nosed Morris Levy, who ran the label and was eventually convicted of extortion, as ``one of the kindest, most warm-hearted, and classiest music men I have ever known.'' At ABC/Impulse!, Thiele oversaw the classic recordings of John Coltrane, although he is the first to admit that Coltrane essentially produced his own sessions. Like many producers of the day, Thiele participated in the ownership of publishing rights to some of the songs he recorded; he makes no apology for this practice, which he calls ``entirely appropriate and without any ethical conflicts.'' A pleasant, if not exactly riveting, memoir that will be of most interest to those with a thirst for cocktail-hour stories of the record biz. (25 halftones, not seen)

Pub Date: May 1, 1995

ISBN: 0-19-508629-4

Page Count: 224

Publisher: Oxford Univ.

Review Posted Online: May 20, 2010

Kirkus Reviews Issue: March 1, 1995

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