An intelligent, harrowing, and boldly confessional account of a survivor.
After being traumatized as a child, a woman describes her descent into homelessness in this memoir.
“My life deteriorated the day Becky died,” remarks Baker, commenting on the death of her childhood dog, her only confidant. The author recounts that she was abused by her father from the age of 4 and was passed among his friends at 6. Consequently, Baker was taught to hide the truth. Her silent pain led to misbehavior in school, property damage, and brushes with the Australian police. By 16, a friend, concerned that she was slipping into alcoholism, convinced the author to start counseling. The sessions began to help, but being fired from her first job—instigated by a co-worker who, she asserts, sexually abused her—compounded her feelings of mistrust. In this first installment of a trilogy, Baker recalls how she grew addicted to drugs and alcohol and became homeless for two years, finding shelter under the Sydney Harbour Bridge. In her darkest moment on the street, the author aimed a knife at her own stomach. Baker’s writing courageously and lucidly excavates deep emotional recesses: “If you asked me then or today where my safe place was, it was in my mind. I had no other place that I could call safe.” Stylistically explosive at times, as when the book relates her response to disapproving passersby—“I would always yell back at the cowardly judges, ‘You give me a fuckin’ shower then!’ I stuck my middle finger in the air”—the memoir is meditative as well. At one point, the author ruminates about the Harbour Bridge: “To me, it was a connection in time, a fortification that holds secrets. It has history, though worlds apart, from the sixteen men who died building the Sydney Harbour Bridge to sixty years later, a place that gave me refuge.” But the work has a few flaws. Baker’s use of a nonlinear timeline can prove confusing, although the revisiting of her past accentuates how her childhood trauma lived on in adulthood. This approach also leads to the repetition of details (“Bridge builders left scraps of metal, chemical waste”; “metal scraps, empty beer cans, chemical waste”). Still, Baker is a talented, versatile writer whose frank book will resonate strongly with those facing similar issues.
An intelligent, harrowing, and boldly confessional account of a survivor.Pub Date: May 26, 2022
ISBN: 978-1-63988-351-6
Page Count: 204
Publisher: Atmosphere Press
Review Posted Online: July 13, 2022
Review Program: Kirkus Indie
A blissfully vicarious, heartfelt glimpse into the life of a Manhattan burlesque dancer.
A former New York City dancer reflects on her zesty heyday in the 1970s.
Discovered on a Manhattan street in 2020 and introduced on Stanton’s Humans of New York Instagram page, Johnson, then 76, shares her dynamic history as a “fiercely independent” Black burlesque dancer who used the stage name Tanqueray and became a celebrated fixture in midtown adult theaters. “I was the only black girl making white girl money,” she boasts, telling a vibrant story about sex and struggle in a bygone era. Frank and unapologetic, Johnson vividly captures aspects of her former life as a stage seductress shimmying to blues tracks during 18-minute sets or sewing lingerie for plus-sized dancers. Though her work was far from the Broadway shows she dreamed about, it eventually became all about the nightly hustle to simply survive. Her anecdotes are humorous, heartfelt, and supremely captivating, recounted with the passion of a true survivor and the acerbic wit of a weathered, street-wise New Yorker. She shares stories of growing up in an abusive household in Albany in the 1940s, a teenage pregnancy, and prison time for robbery as nonchalantly as she recalls selling rhinestone G-strings to prostitutes to make them sparkle in the headlights of passing cars. Complemented by an array of revealing personal photographs, the narrative alternates between heartfelt nostalgia about the seedier side of Manhattan’s go-go scene and funny quips about her unconventional stage performances. Encounters with a variety of hardworking dancers, drag queens, and pimps, plus an account of the complexities of a first love with a drug-addled hustler, fill out the memoir with personality and candor. With a narrative assist from Stanton, the result is a consistently titillating and often moving story of human struggle as well as an insider glimpse into the days when Times Square was considered the Big Apple’s gloriously unpolished underbelly. The book also includes Yee’s lush watercolor illustrations.
A blissfully vicarious, heartfelt glimpse into the life of a Manhattan burlesque dancer.Pub Date: July 12, 2022
ISBN: 978-1-250-27827-2
Page Count: 192
Publisher: St. Martin's
Review Posted Online: July 27, 2022
A juicy story with some truly crazy moments, yet Anderson's good heart shines through.
The iconic model tells the story of her eventful life.
According to the acknowledgments, this memoir started as "a fifty-page poem and then grew into hundreds of pages of…more poetry." Readers will be glad that Anderson eventually turned to writing prose, since the well-told anecdotes and memorable character sketches are what make it a page-turner. The poetry (more accurately described as italicized notes-to-self with line breaks) remains strewn liberally through the pages, often summarizing the takeaway or the emotional impact of the events described: "I was / and still am / an exceptionally / easy target. / And, / I'm proud of that." This way of expressing herself is part of who she is, formed partly by her passion for Anaïs Nin and other writers; she is a serious maven of literature and the arts. The narrative gets off to a good start with Anderson’s nostalgic memories of her childhood in coastal Vancouver, raised by very young, very wild, and not very competent parents. Here and throughout the book, the author displays a remarkable lack of anger. She has faced abuse and mistreatment of many kinds over the decades, but she touches on the most appalling passages lightly—though not so lightly you don't feel the torment of the media attention on the events leading up to her divorce from Tommy Lee. Her trip to the pages of Playboy, which involved an escape from a violent fiance and sneaking across the border, is one of many jaw-dropping stories. In one interesting passage, Julian Assange's mother counsels Anderson to desexualize her image in order to be taken more seriously as an activist. She decided that “it was too late to turn back now”—that sexy is an inalienable part of who she is. Throughout her account of this kooky, messed-up, enviable, and often thrilling life, her humility (her sons "are true miracles, considering the gene pool") never fails her.
A juicy story with some truly crazy moments, yet Anderson's good heart shines through.Pub Date: Jan. 31, 2023
ISBN: 9780063226562
Page Count: 256
Publisher: Dey Street/HarperCollins
Review Posted Online: Dec. 5, 2022
Kirkus Reviews Issue: Jan. 1, 2023
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